January done.

Can you imagine? January is done. I tended to deny its closure a couple of days ago because it all went by so fast and it's crazy to think that I did not get things fully straighten out yet. A month long transition and supposed intense planning session should've been done. At least I should already have an idea of what to do for the entire year. The planning part DID start, but A LOT of things were already independently moving. I need to be really careful in incorporating my plans to have an overall better outcome as any career and nerve wracking moment might change my life forever. I'm afraid these changes and movements would make or break my year. 

Well I did vaguely plan out my entire year last January. I must admit that with unexpected movements some things were forced up on me and some things became a bit clearer. Since new career and life changing possibilities began to shower last January I had to keep up and adapt. I guess that's why things became so crazy and hectic. I was at the same time trying to inject and adjust my goals and plans to the present reality. It doesn't look clear and sound now, which irritates me. But I realized it's not something that needs to be forced. There's no good outcome if I get too overly consumed about things I cannot control. I just have to strive and learn how to benefit more. January may be over, but I still have 11 months left to achieve my goals, straighten things out and be productive. I guess the endless possibilities affect the planner in me.

Anyways, this year will happen whether I like it or not. No chance of just sitting and giving it all up. Certain things may be beyond my control, some of which will work against me, but I've nothing to do but forge on. Giving up this early in the game just because it became too crazy or tougher than expected is a bit weak and stupid. As long as the focus and goals are there, no matter what, I should be able to follow through. 

January is over and that month was one hell of a crazy ride. But I still know what I want and I might not have the perfect direction to get it, but it will be done despite the changes we experience. There's no use being too stressed about things. We always have to strike a balance, always. Blogging makes me release air and I hope those who have read this understands the complexity. I don't know how to achieve my goals yet, but I guess I pretty much know what they are. I have plans, but everything can still change and one thing we need to learn is to gracefully adapt. I am doing the best I can and this year may still represent a victory for me.