Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Chase me with the Ball Game

I've been on vacation leave since Friday and all I can say is...HEAVEN. I was pigging out, catching up on my favorite TV series, malling and even had a haircut! Things I'm not able to spend time in a leisurely pace, I was finally able to do. Most importantly, I spent time with family, friends and my dogs, whom I rarely get to play with during work weeks.

I think I've already reached my quota. If these dogs could talk, for the past few days they'd say I was clingy. I'd wrestle with them, watch them like a yaya, walk with them and give them treats and pasalubongs all the time. I only let them be after dinner.

One of the morning rituals I look for and enjoy is drinking my cup of coffee in the garden and watch my dogs at play. Something about it calms me down. It gets my morning straight and gives me inspiration to work for them. I know it sounds silly, but my mornings aren't complete without watching them.

Yesterday the guys found a green ball in our garage. Must've been accidentally tossed by some kid. Well, poor kid, he won't see that ball again cause all hell broke loose. They were scrambling for it and eventually it went under my dad's car, classic dilemma! Chivas, Harvey and Bruce were trying to figure out how to get it and I wasn't keen on helping them no matter how Harvey went to me and pleaded. I knew they could figure it out on their own. Plus, I was enjoying watching them panic and work it out. Bruce obviously couldn't squeeze himself in. Harvey tried a couple of times, but Chivas eventually came through. That's what I call pure team work and dedication.


Ball accidentally went under the car.

Nice effort Harvey


Then when Chivas got the ball out, Bruce got it by sheer force. What he does is he makes them run for it. Harvey, who likes to play chase, loves this game. When Harvey catches up, Bruce always does this sharp 360 degree turn and run around the opposite direction. This is one of the rare times that they're complete and I dare not miss it. Usually Chivas would just watch them from a distance being a snob and all. 


Chill time

Bruce gets the privilege to become a leader in this game, but ironically he's always the first one to plop down. He is a low-energy dog. He gets strong energy spurts, but after 5 minutes, he's knocked down. Harvey and Chivas have more endurance. But while Bruce rests, the two dogs chill around with him.

Probably they did 3 sets of Chase-Me-With-The-Ball game. It must have been that tiring because after that, they each had a long brunch nap.

I love these dogs.


Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Princess Bride

In the spirit of Valentine's and to appease my short attention span mood, I've decided to read something light, passionate and romantic. I was cleaning up my e-books selection when I saw William Goldman's Princess Bride.

I've seen printed copies of this in the best seller sections of bookstores last year. But I didn't pay attention to it. But I admit I was a bit curious why it became a best seller though.

I was googling best titles for romance fiction last weekend and as always, Pride and Prejudice, One Day and A room with a view are some of the books that would always come up. I've already read those and I want something new. Just so happened I wasn't also not in the mood for classics. Something in likes of One Day or mass-romance novels would do. Then I found a best seller list that contains Princess Bride. Looking at my e-book collection and seeing the title included there, I figured it's already at my disposal. So the search was over.

After reading a few chapters, I realized that this is not your typical, heavy and romantic story. It is a love story with fun adventure. It could be read by teenagers before angst became such a big hit. It also injects a basic dose of magic realism that I mostly read from Allende and G.G. Marquez. Reading it reminds me of Stardust by Neil Gaiman. A stubborn, headstrong beauty, betrothed to a very distinct prince who loves hunting more than women, gets kidnapped by a band of syndicates with extraordinary characteristics. Little do they know that the soon-to-be princess is in love with their old stable boy who became a renowned fighter during one of his expeditions and has come to rescue her. I like it that the situations and characters are goofy and that they swear.

I haven't reached the middle of the story to know the much deeper conflicts and intricacies of the plot, but so far I am entertained. There's no drama here. It's a pure love story trying to find its way through a goofy adventure. It's also not your typical fairy tale. If you like reading Stardust, you'll probably like this one.




Romance Books

Lately, I've been having low attention span. I want everything to be snappy. I usually care much for details, but now I just want something to do, something to entertainment myself with.

Since I've just finished reading SLEEPERS, which is not your usual perky book. In fact it is kind of disturbing, leaning more on the heavy side. This time I want something equally fast and light. I don't want to delve into deep human drama for a while. I'm not in the mood for subtleness either. While Fantasy and sci-fi may have too much details for my current mood, I think I can just go and read something from my brother's shelf. Adventure genre would be nice or my usual thriller formula books written by my default writers. But you know what, I think I'm in the mood for romance.

I am a voracious reader and my shelf carries titles from different genres. I may be more familiar in one genre, but that doesn't mean I don't get a taste of everything. I read from thriller to erotica, from fantasy to classics, from romance to contemporary. Anything interesting, brilliant and captures my current mood is good enough for me. I am not really picky on genres. My mood dictates it.

Though I must admit, reading mass-romance novels came as a surprise for me because I'm really not into romance. I'm not raised to like the damsel in distress characters, my personality and ambition give me the drive to hate these helpless ladies. I was raised in a non-affectionate, professional household. My personality is anti-cheesiness and programmed to hate hormonal drama. So naturally, romance novels didn't really appeal to me.

I discovered this genre rather late. My first experience was reading Judith McNaught's best seller Someone Like You that was recommended by an officemate who loves to read books, only romance books that is. She is a certified romance books collector so if I was to do this right, I knew I was in good hands. When I saw the book she wanted me to read right there and then I wanted to laugh. The title was such a giveaway. Though I kind of expected that the title would be a total crap, but I never thought I'd really go through it. I thought it was a joke. But I did carry on to put the curiosity aside. I wanted to know first hand why the romance novels built such an empire. Well, I finished the book in 2 days reading it during breaks. I was hooked.

I never mocked romance novels again. I didn't actually convert to a major fan, but I do respect them now. Romance books are entertaining. It's light and it's a fantasy even for self sufficient women whose characters appeal have their own strengths. The lead characters are not as stupid as I thought. Romance books sometimes teach us bullish women to have fun and entertain the possibility of a heartfelt romance. Deep inside our career oriented minds that don't really care much for sassiness and drama in the real world, romance novels provide an escape into another side of being a woman that we sometimes tend to forget. Who doesn't want to be wooed and be swept away anyways? The lead characters aren't stupid. They're not dramatic. They're strong women who found love and forged with it. They're not like a confused teenager like Bella Swan you'd want to strangle. They have  their own lives and they fell in love with men built up to be desirable, but with agreeable flaws. I guess there's a certain appeal reading about strong women who break their walls because of true love.

After my Judith McNaught experience, she instantly belonged to the list of my formula writers like Robin Cook and John Grisham. I bought a couple of more titles, read it when the mood demanded and was entertained. After McNaught I came across a romance-fantasy-viking series of Josie Litton. When  a high school friend saw me buying the copies titled: Dream of Me and Believe in Me, she laughed out loud and couldn't believe I was sane enough to waste time on it. I understood her reaction and told her I was exactly that person laughing loud and judging romance titles a couple of months ago. Then I ended up becoming a staunch defender. Romance books, for sophisticated readers who haven't experienced it,  immediately slam them as crap. Well it's not pulitzer prize winning material. It might not be that deep and insightful, but it still a reliable solid entertainment for whoever's open minded and accepting.

Appreciating romance books taught me to be more open minded. Reading romance novels became a turning point of my reading life when I became more flexible to appreciating different genres. I realized a good story, written in an appealing tone, creates a good book. It doesn't matter what the genre is. As long as the reader is transported and entertained, I think the book served its purpose. And right now I'm in the mood for a light, heart warming, passionate love story. Checking out the romance books I have in store. 

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

First Pictorial Shots

Some of the sweet random shots from the impromptu pictorial!

The shoot was a great experience especially with 3 rowdy dogs. It wasn't perfect that's for sure. We didn't even have a concept or direction. The dogs were all over the place.

Special thanks to Mitch Bautista of Art Movement Studios.

Next time, we would know better and really prepare. I really want a solid group shot and some theme to make it sassier. Next time, we'll get those editorial shots.

Out of all the dogs, Bruce is the best to work with when it comes to getting portrait shots. Probably he likes the camera and he doesn't really move or squirm around that much. Just call his name and he'll give you a pose. 

Harvey is the a photographer's nightmare. Though he is cute, you can't really expect him to not move around. He is easily distracted. Chivas doesn't pose, but doesn't really move either. He's just snobbish. 

When Chivas is alone, you can rely on him to cooperate. 

This was towards the end when all of them were already tired. 

He got distracted again.

This is a funny emo shot of Bruce. There are 4 pictures of him staring in the distance. He was like posing for an emo-campaign then when Mitch called him: "Bruce, look at me!" Just like a model, he looks. 

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Fearful Dog 101

I just recently helped out a friend to get a new Pomeranian puppy today. I was excited. I always relish and support people who decide to take on or adopt dogs. I think dogs are the best animal companion ever! I always share their happiness cause I've experienced it thrice and it's always a euphoric feeling especially if you've connected with the dog.

Unfortunately the cute female pomeranian that we got was a bit shy and fearful. She played around in her familiar environment, but when she was taken into her new home, I got a feedback that she was scared. They didn't know if she was sick or not. Her ears tend to droop and she was immediately taken to a veterinarian. I also consulted mine. Both feedbacks were that it's nothing serious and she's just trying to adjust. Physiologically, they say ears do take time to be pointy especially for some puppies. I don't know but according to some web sites, it's something to do with teething. I'm no veterinarian. I sincerely wish I am, but I do think the pup is just trying to absorb new surroundings and new people. As long as she's eating and she's not being nauseous, I think she's fine.

But I also remember truly fearful dogs that do take time to adjust. Case in point: Bruce.

Here are some things that I did that made him a bit better. Some are also shared by his trainers in his dog school. Most of these are not scientifically proven. It is just based on my humble experience and advice.

1. Use Food

  • Dogs need food and they love food. It's just finding the right opportunity and the right treat for your dog. Treat dogs differently. Some dogs like apple, some hate it. Harvey doesn't eat banana but he loves apple. Bruce practically eats anything, but he's more of a banana guy. Chivas doesn't eat any fruit, he's more of a kangkong dog. If a bone doesn't work, try to find something with enticing aroma. Freshly cooked liver, heated dog food, freshly cooked beef cubes or any food (that's safe) that gives off a powerful and flavorful aroma. Dogs' sense of smell is strong. You need aromatic food to entice his senses and then work on the visual. Gastro-intelligence in dogs are kind of low. Food is a major tool to entice them. 
  • What I did: During lunch time if you want your dog to move around, use food. Put the container in a spot you'd like him to be. Then if he goes there, encourage him and say his name in a very positive tone. Sometimes give him extra. He will translate his food reward into something good. He will learn. 
2. Use his name in a positive tone

  • Dogs really don't understand the meaning of their names. They just hear it and they depend on the tone. If you get impatient and tend to call his name in a threatening manner, you're contradicting his progress. A very stern and aggressive tone will make him think twice. 
  • If he does something progressive, repeat his name again while giving him a fabulous treat. 
3. Expose him to people and other house dogs. 

  • Visit him all the time and encourage play. Expose all the people in your household. Encourage him to move by saying his name. If he won't budge, there's still another day. Always try to interact with the dog even if he won't react positively for the day. Consistency and perseverance are essential.
  • If you have other dogs, so much the better. Sometimes fearful dogs get encouraged with other more sociable dogs. Use the sociable dog to show him that you can be trusted. Bruce initially got confidence from Harvey. Whenever I went and played around with Harvey, he would look and follow us. Eventually he learned how to follow Harvey without me and began to explore the grounds on his own. 
4. Take a walk

  • Develop a schedule to walk him around the house then eventually outside. If he doesn't progress beyond the street, that's still fine. Do it again and again until he gets used to it until he expands and goes beyond that street. If he wants to go back to the house, encourage him and use his name to come along. Never threat. If he really doesn't like, well there's always tomorrow. The importance is to expose him everyday no matter how small the progress is. Walking is one of the best activities a master and a dog could share. 
5. Do not use force
  • Fearful dogs will teach you to be patient. Do not be discouraged if he won't show any massive signs of progress for the day. Nobody said it would be easy. Much of the work and repetition would be initiated by the master. If it doesn't work for the day, save the energy for tomorrow. There's no use of pulling the leash and getting him to move by force. You would just end up traumatizing. They key is happy repetition and rewards for the smallest step or improvement. 
6. Touchy and supportive are 2 different things

  • The trainer said that if a fearful dog gets scared and hides behind you should NOT HUG and try to comfort him in such a way that's telling him it's okay to run and hide. If you tend to pet him or  hug him while he's hiding, it might translate that he's doing a great job. False comfort will tell him that it's okay to be scared all the time. 
  • If he gets behind you or run away, follow him and urge him to come out. Do not pet. Use his name, appropriate tone and food to lure him back. If he doesn't walk, slightly try to nudge the leash (not entirely pull) and use his name to keep on moving. Use the familiar term "Let's go or come on." Continuously call his name, nudge at the leash, give him rewards for acknowledging you and try to move. Never shout his name, utter frustration or pull the leash. 
  • If he's hiding, keep yourself visible and use aromatic food to draw him out. If you're done for the day, let him be. Leave the food and water outside. He would eventually get out of his hiding spot. 
7. Listen to the Radio

  • Some dogs find comfort listening to music. Promise. In my case, music from 96.3 works wonders. They sleep instantly with a pleasant music on and they associate happy melodic songs to happy times. 
  • In my case, ballad music calms nervous dogs. Put it in low volume first and gradually increase to the average volume. 
8. Sunlight

  • This is a suggestion by one of our veterinarian friends. Expose your dogs to healthy morning sun because for some reason, sunlight helps the dog's disposition. I don't know the scientific truth to this, but I'm not sure if you've observed your dogs indulge in sunbathing form time to time. Bruce and Harvey do it almost every morning. They pick a spot in the garden and sunbathe there, calmly as if they're in the French Riviera. Sometimes my mom would shoo them way in the fear of them having heat stroke, but they do look for heat and sun sometimes. Seeing sunbathing dogs are weird, but couldn't be that bad, right?
9. Visit a veterinarian. Get some medicine.

  • If things don't really change and you see your dog get thinner, maybe it's time to get him to the vet. He might be feeling something very uncomfortable, an infection of some sort. Veterinarians are still the best person to assess your dog medically. They might prescribe vitamins to keep him energized and give him pills to calm down if all else fails. They might share a thing or two to help your dogs overcome fear. Droopy ears, dry notes, constant shaking are something they can diagnose and address.
10. Hire a dog behavior specialist or trainer

  • This is to teach you and the dog what to do. If all else fails, a specialist or a trainer may have fool proof methods to share. They've experienced working with different dogs before and handling fearful dogs is one of their top cases for sure. If you don't have time, they can do the rehabilitation or training for you. In a way they can assess your dog and assess you at the same time if your methods of encouraging are correct. 
These are just some of the things that I did for Bruce and Chivas that might help your case. Again, these are not scientific, but I've proven to myself that it works. Well, not all dogs are the same, but wouldn't hurt trying these. I've exposed Bruce to all 10 though not at the same time and he wasn't the same pup I've met 5 months ago. With all these methods, genuine love and trust form the foundation, therefore a must. I guess these methods wouldn't successful if there were no love and trust to begin with. 

A story of a Fearful Dog



When getting a new dog or a puppy, we humans get so overjoyed and excited that we only consider what we see from the outside. How it looks, its color or even its stance. When the dog shakes or surrenders, we attribute the shaking and droopiness to his immediate response to a new environment or human being. We shrug it off and expect that they would just sleep it off. That may be the usual case, but remember that not dogs are the same even if they came from one pack. Some dogs are just so fearful.

Shy dogs are quite different from fearful dogs in my case. For me, I consider all dogs to be generally shy though in varying degrees. Shyness is attributed to interactions. If a dog acts normal in a new environment and hides behind you or hesitates when a stranger comes near, I think he’s just shy. Chivas for instance, my Pomeranian, is shy (snooty) with strangers. If a stranger comes near, he observes and he hesitates. He usually looks for someone he knows for support sometimes he just barks away. But a fearful dog is a bit different. A fearful dog I believe has a worse case. They’re scared of almost everything, a sound, a step, an object or anything new. It’s not only concentrated on humans or strangers. It’s almost with everything they see, hear or smell.

Bruce, my huge Bullmastiff, started off as a very fearful dog, he wouldn’t get out of his cage when I was there to pick him up. He kept his head down and avoided almost anything he might bump into. He walked like a hunch back. He didn’t even try to make eye contact. What he wanted was to find a spot to hide and be left alone. He was shaking. His eyes spelled fear. At home, he wouldn’t leave this particular spot in our kitchen. He kept his head beneath the washing machine for a week. He didn’t like to interact with people no matter how we try to comfort him. Any unfamiliar sound or a door creaking, he would panic and look for a place to hide. I saw him once put a gallant effort in putting his entire body beneath the washing machine. He wouldn’t interact with the rest of the dogs or with any of us. His face would be miserable and he would shake constantly. He wouldn’t leave that space for the entire week and it wasn’t like that with the rest of our dogs. Chivas was shy at first, but at lest he was responsive. Bruce was more of a dog-psychology case.

We tried our best to make him walk around, but he wouldn’t. We pulled him gently in a leash, but he would sit and try to hide his head somewhere. We instead carried him outside to explore, but he ended up just looking for a corner and sit there and eventually bury his head between his front legs. Mitch came by one Saturday and tried to urge him to get out. We tried to entice him with cheese, bone and food, but he wouldn’t move. We did an experiment though, a sort of cruel one for his sake.

It was already lunch time. There was not much improvement from the previous week. He was still hunched and curled up in one corner not making any sound or eye contact. No one would actually know he was there. I had to do something. I’m getting worried. I’ve never had this case before. This was not a shy dog. Any movement, any sound, he would react and shake. So we tried something drastic, we got his dish full of dog food and kept it with us a good few distance away from him. We wanted him to stand up and get his food, to leave his place. It took a while. Eventually he became so hungry. His head went up looking at us. He was trying to weigh things out. Should I move? Should I stay? Then he started to move his feet. He was about to stand when he heard the voice of my brother asking for his cell phone, he immediately sat down and went back on his fetal position. We were back to square one, but we still waited. After a couple of minutes, he began to move his legs and tried to stand up. He was assessing if he would take that first step. His stomach must have been growling. Eventually he did. It was a painful first step. His head was so low it would touch the ground and his movements were so calculated. Mitch and I saved our reactions until he reached the bowl. He assessed again if he would eat in front of us. He must be so hungry cause he did. Mitch and I didn’t move a muscle. We smiled, it was such a huge progress. Then I wasn’t able to fight the urge to go nearer, when I did, he panicked and went back to his old spot. But still I was happy. It took days for him to leave his spot and go from point A to point B, then slowly he started interacting with dogs and he got familiar with us. He must have figured that nothing in the house would hurt him. Point A and B expanded to Point C, D and E. Then he became calm when we petted him. One day he wasn’t shaking anymore. He even wagged his tail and followed us. Soon he was all over the place in our house. Occasional new sounds or sights would still put him on guard, but it wasn’t that bad as before. He learned how to explore the grounds on his own and face his fears for him to operate normally.  When we bought him to his first year of school in Makati, he relied heavily on Harvey for confidence. When we took Harvey out, he immediately lost it and began hiding behind my back. He was again afraid of sounds, new sights and scents. The trainer ruled him as a fearful dog and made extra efforts to give him yummier treats to cooperate. Eventually he did. It entailed more work, but he did. He went to private training instead of with a group because it’s an area he has to develop, group exercises won’t necessarily work immediately with fearful dogs. But he did cooperate. He learned to trust us eventually and worked with the trainer. It was a successful run.

I can say Bruce is still fearful in some things, but slowly he’s trying to learn how to manage it. He would observe and avoid, but he wouldn’t necessarily run to find a hiding spot. He’s not stuck and lost like before, but it does take time and effort…a lot of both. If he sees new dogs, he stops and occasionally hides behind my back, but he would observe and look up to me. I would utter supportive words and urge him to move along and he does. Fearful dogs like Bruce take time to adjust and usually needs someone to remind them to be confident. Half of the work really comes from the owners. Some dogs can sleep on their new environment overnight while some dogs like Bruce need a drastic method to get moving. They need lots of support and time.

Fearful dogs like Bruce are a lot of work. Sometimes there is no distinct past that contributed to that factor and some dogs are just like that. But that work really pays off when you see your dog improve and find comfort albeit in a slow paced way. That’s fine for me, they have all the time and the world and all the love they can receive to keep on trying. Bruce was a first of almost everything I thought I knew in raising a dog. He taught me a lot of things that eventually made me better.

Fearful dogs teach us to be patient and forgiving. We never rush these dogs to do anything. Everything comes in due time. We might need to do that extra push and do something drastic, but sometimes they need that. Fearful dogs remind owners of their responsibility. Not all dogs are the same, dogs still need nurturing and as owners we have to give it to them. They teach us that dogs are still the different. They teach us to be patient and be supportive. They teach us to observe and understand their needs more. They teach us to nurture and be more caring.

Bruce is better, a lot better. He can walk around the house on his own. He can deal with new sounds now and he doesn’t react badly if I introduce him to strangers. I’ve walked him in the park with ease. He sometimes takes walks outside our house. We’ve taken him to High Street and he initiates play with the other dogs. Amongst the three, he is still the more fearful one if I would have to use the term. Harvey doesn’t know the concept of shy or fear. He’s not shy with strangers and he doesn’t fear new sounds, new movements and bigger dogs. In fact, he has a small-dog mentality. I am the one who fears for his safety. Chivas is the snooty-shy type. He’s not fearful but shy with strangers, but he does things his own things anyway. Actually he’s not shy. He’s judgmental. While Bruce is the most charming one, everyday is still a working progress. I think I have elevated him from being a fearful dog to a shy dog. With constant love, care and support any fearful dog could improve. Bruce taught me a lot of things. He taught me never to give up and be more patient. He taught me to be open-minded and be more caring. He’s not perfect, he still has fearful moments from time to time, but with us around, he knows he’ll be okay. Just like any person discovering himself, dogs are like that too, you would be surprised. 


Saturday, February 9, 2013

2013 Goals: Pack Photo Shoot

OMG! Excited Much!


It's 6:01 AM on a Sunday morning and I was already awake by 5:10 AM. This ain't normal that's for sure. Thanks to that very very bad dream for this early wake up call. The dream was a failed attempt to bake cupcakes, which resulted to a massive explosion with walls eating up the waste. While digesting the catastrophe, I realized I was smeared with frosting that tasted like blood and the walls slowly closing in on me. Then I woke up. Well, the dream taught me that before I sleep to NEVER eat cupcakes after watching a horror movie. It also reminded me that I have no career whatsoever in baking. And I can totally live with that. 

But aside from that very bad dream, I think I can't sleep cause of excitement! Nothing really grand. It's actually shallow. But still, after this, I would get to tick off one of my listed 2013 Goals!

DOG PHOTO SHOOT!!!

Yeah. I know it's super shallow. But I need  to get good photos for my dogs. It's so long overdue! I had been planning one session when Harvey was still our only-dog. Due to schedules and failed prioritization, it didn't push through. Then Chivas came along so the desire for a photo shoot was there again, then Bruce came into our lives! Now I won't let this pass. I included it in my early 2013 goals.

And I know the perfect person to do this. Mitch, who else? Mitch, a self-taught photographer, is a part of these dogs lives. He knows their history and he is a dog lover himself. I still remember one random afternoon when he did a photo shoot with Harvey a couple of years ago. They clicked. It came out beautifully and I want a repeat now that they're complete.

I've tried amateur attempts using my phone and IPad, but nothing beats getting it done with good equipment and much more creative vision. For the life of me, I have no concept whatsoever of angling, lighting and a good shot. 

But finally it's going to happen today! Yahoo! Here's to my overdue portraits! I just hope the sun's out and the dogs are in the mood!







My morning send-off Committee

Every morning before I go to work I say goodbye to my dogs.

And it breaks my heart every time.

I wish I could just stay at home and be with them. I wish I'm so filthy rich to not think about work. Have businesses make money for me. I wish for so many different, shallow and unrealistic things. Treating them like kids, I always tell them (as if they'd understand) that I have to work FOR them. Their food and needs are quiet expensive. Just thinking about it makes me drive my ass to work.

But it does break my heart every morning especially if they walk with me to the car or to the gate. They form my morning send-off committee. They always watch over and see me off. Bruce is the more affectionate one. Always circling and nudging my head while walking to the car or gate. But when I get near the gate or car, he stops from a distance and watches with a sad and curious face. Harvey may not be affectionate one, but ever since he escorts me to the last step. That last space before I open the gate, he's there. He's always right below the driver's door waiting for me to close it. Buddy is a steady and mature dog. He just sees me off while Chivas sometimes barks at me cause I think I might have looked more presentable than usual.

My send off committee every morning leaves a bitter sweet taste in my mouth.


Sleepers

Sleepers - (slang) a juvenile delinquent sentenced to serve more than 9 months or a spy/agent who remains undercover and passing through town. 

I still don't get it why they used the term Sleeper, but I really don't care. I loved the book.

I picked this up in one of my more random bookstore visits. As far as I can remember I really had no specific reasons why I bought it. I didn't even realize that it was the exact book the 1996 film Sleepers was based on. Well, it was a vague memory. I remember back in high school, during the Brad Pitt matinee idol era, my best friend was raving about the film. I didn't get to watch it though and I still haven't watched it. It's kind of weird actually. Usually expose myself to really good films, but I think there were misses here and there. This is one of them cause I figured the movie was pretty awesome with Robert De Niro, Dustin Hoffman and of course Brad Pitt. But the book was awesome.

There was no particular reason why I bought this book. All I know is that it was a random pick and I was hooked immediately on the premise. 4 boys in Hell's Kitchen find themselves convicted and sentenced to juvenile imprisonment, which changed their lives forever. Sleepers written by Lorenzo Carcaterra was a book about friendship, retribution and tragedy. Though in this case, I'm more interested on the tragic parts. What went on in the juvenile facility that was so bad interested me more. I figured that was the core of the story.

While reading the book, it transports you from the good times. The foundation of the neighborhood and the boy's friendship were greatly given weight. They've always been protected amidst the imperfections, but as a reader there were some anxiety attacks knowing that something would eventually slip. Then the break did occur and the juvenile imprisonment happens.

The juvenile facility experience was just so scary. I couldn't imagine a place like that existed or people even had the conscience to do disgusting things to kids. There were difficult times reading abuses being done on the characters the book built up so well. At first I wanted to know the more tragic parts, but actually reading through it just made me want to get to the revenge part fast.



The book, more than the successfully narrated harrowing parts, was successful in building up the lives of these four boys each with a definitive character who suffered and got justice the only way they knew how. There weren't saints definitely but they deserved imprisonment but not the abuse. It was a novel to narrate imperfect systems, dangerous neighborhood, dysfunctional households and tragic experiences, but it was also a story of hope, strong friendship, value of life and innocence.

This is not exactly a light novel. Some parts are quite difficult to digest, but no one should miss this. There's really a profound reason why it was a best seller in the first place. It's not a book with a light material. This demands a toughened heart.

I haven't watched the movie, and I don't think I would want to watch it ever. The book is more than enough for me. 

2013 Goal: Road trip with the Pack

One of my goals this year is to bring my pack for a road trip and the quickest destination from my house is Tagaytay. At the start I knew it's either going to be a bad idea or an insanely good one. 3 rowdy dogs in a car will definitely keep our hands full and tempers rising. Luckily my sister, my brother and aunt had faith in this whole thing. My boyfriend did too, forced or willing, I'm not so sure. :)

My sister and boyfriend were in charge of navigation and driving. While the three of us at the back seat managed the dogs. Harvey was obviously the unruly one. He kept squeezing himself at the driver's area.  Chivas as expected was so pliant and well behaved, I am proud of him. But we did have problems with Bruce. Well for one, he's KJ when it comes to travel. He didn't want to get inside the car. And when he was already in the car he would would whine, cry and walk around. Harvey and Chivas would just look at him, curious. I tried different ways to comfort him. I gave him cheese, gave him a huge bone and got him his blanket, but nothing seemed to work. We drove around the village just to get him used to it, but we ended up bringing him home. I wanted to be with him and I wanted him to experience road trips, but it's obvious that he was uncomfortable and tortured. In the end, I wanted his safety and sanity. When he stepped out of the car, it was remarkable how relaxed he became. He was running around so excited to see the ground and saw us off. My heart broke, but I'm all for what he wants.








So the original pack was decreased to Harvey and Chivas. 2 small and manageable dogs who can handle long road trips well. We passed by Sta. Rosa Paseo Center first to check out some shoes before we continued to Tagaytay proper.

In Tagaytay, it was breezy, but not to the point that we'd shiver, which was a bit disappointing. And the most upsetting part of it all, most of the restaurants, even the outdoor ones do not allow pets. We were stunned and disappointed. In all the restaurants that we checked, we were requested to leave the dogs behind. No way. Hunger, frustration and anger started to mix. It was 9 pm when we decided to head back home and go to Nuvali, an ever reliable Ayala commercial center, to have dinner. Ayala premium properties have always been pet friendly. We had no problems there.

We got back to Paranaque just before midnight. Tired souls but fulfilled and content. Although we didn't get to do all the things we wanted, it was still fun. It wasn't perfect. Bruce wasn't there, the restaurants were pathetic, the weather wasn't all that cold, but the trip was an experience and it was worth it. There were things that I could do better next time, but for now this is enough and I'm happy!

One of the goals for this year is to have a road trip with the dogs. DONE!


Saturday, February 2, 2013

My House Desk

Okay. I'm not techie nor tech savvy. I am your typical average IT consumer and I mean average in every sense. I don't do downloads. I only bought a laptop because my old one was just too old and unbecoming of my age. I have an old IPOD and IPAD I won from a lottery. And since my old Android phone died a painful death, I got a smashing supposedly durable new phone, which I still have yet to tinker on. I don't think that day would really come. I am and will be an average IT consumer.



Seeing this desk at my house, I want to cringe. I'm transferring ebooks from my laptop to my IPAD with my Note on my left and the PC in front of me. I know this looks intense, but really I'm only blogging, transferring files and texting. This looks stupid.

Mitch taught me the concept of Dropbox and iCloud, but I wasn't listening. My fault. I texted him today to give me a crash course (again) later. I cannot work like this. I cannot be in this environment. I want to throw up.


January done.



Can you imagine? January is done. I tended to deny its closure a couple of days ago because it all went by so fast and it's crazy to think that I did not get things fully straighten out yet. A month long transition and supposed intense planning session should've been done. At least I should already have an idea of what to do for the entire year. The planning part DID start, but A LOT of things were already independently moving. I need to be really careful in incorporating my plans to have an overall better outcome as any career and nerve wracking moment might change my life forever. I'm afraid these changes and movements would make or break my year. 

Well I did vaguely plan out my entire year last January. I must admit that with unexpected movements some things were forced up on me and some things became a bit clearer. Since new career and life changing possibilities began to shower last January I had to keep up and adapt. I guess that's why things became so crazy and hectic. I was at the same time trying to inject and adjust my goals and plans to the present reality. It doesn't look clear and sound now, which irritates me. But I realized it's not something that needs to be forced. There's no good outcome if I get too overly consumed about things I cannot control. I just have to strive and learn how to benefit more. January may be over, but I still have 11 months left to achieve my goals, straighten things out and be productive. I guess the endless possibilities affect the planner in me.

Anyways, this year will happen whether I like it or not. No chance of just sitting and giving it all up. Certain things may be beyond my control, some of which will work against me, but I've nothing to do but forge on. Giving up this early in the game just because it became too crazy or tougher than expected is a bit weak and stupid. As long as the focus and goals are there, no matter what, I should be able to follow through. 

January is over and that month was one hell of a crazy ride. But I still know what I want and I might not have the perfect direction to get it, but it will be done despite the changes we experience. There's no use being too stressed about things. We always have to strike a balance, always. Blogging makes me release air and I hope those who have read this understands the complexity. I don't know how to achieve my goals yet, but I guess I pretty much know what they are. I have plans, but everything can still change and one thing we need to learn is to gracefully adapt. I am doing the best I can and this year may still represent a victory for me.